Why hello, I have lost the passion to write it seems. I'm very busy right now with work and, hopefully good news on the 15th. Surprise surprise, watch this space.

It's funny how little I think about chemistry. When it's all I used to think about.

Neglegence

Have been neglecting this blog for some time and that will change now because I'm free as a bird. I'm officially done w school, and awaiting my results which will be in a months time, and my official certificate will be out in 4 to 5 months time can u believe that?

So now its just work work work and finding the things i've always wanted to do but never had the time. Shall visit my sis more often and go to places I have always wanted to go such as cycling at east coast, Universal studios(yes I know almost everyone has been there but me). By the way there is a new ride, based on transformers, the movie. Sometimes finishing last is not so bad. What else, oh I'd like to visit the zoo again. My favourite place in the whole zoo is definitely the animal farm where the kids go. That's the only place where we can feed n touch the little lambs and everything. I think there are other feeding areas but there is a fixed timing to it and idk why but I seem to have the worst luck in the zoo. Sigh, I wish I owned a zoo! And an animal shelter. That would definitely be the dream.

Anyway, Halloween this year! Went to zouk, and the song was just rubbish. Saw people leaving as early as 12ish and I even heard a guy shouting as he left that the songs sucked. It was an experience for me though, it was a first. I saw power rangers (5 of them)/ captain America/ wonder woman/ trannies/ neytiri from avatar/ the usual pilot, police(me), Pocahontas, surgeon/ nurse/ human iPod and some guy dressed as a fat naked woman with clothes peg stuck to the nipples.
No, wearing a bunny/ kitty ear head band does not make that a costume. I saw heap load of that. I also hate it when people just throw some white paint on the face or some blood stains and i can never decipher who they are. Are they just dead? I also saw this girl wearing a skirt so short and she was all drunk, which is a normal sight, but then she had a tampon string in hanging in between her legs. Gross.

Pictures!

Will be back to post more about my fruitful week! <3 see ya soon.

This is how i feel right now, and many other times.

Growing up i was a fool

Timecheck: 6.10pm

Lying in bed, and my mind wanders off into space and into a blackhole, or a milkyway. I start to think about this thing we all call life. What is life? Is it smth we experience in the mind? What is happiness? What is sadness? What is jealousy? Who gave them these names and who defined them? What if there were no such thing as happiness or sadness or jealousy, what if the pure thought of labelling them and giving them such names, created them. And then we are all percieved to believe that feelings exist. Oh but what a shame if they didn't exist, cause after all, to feel is to live. If feelings didn't exist, would we still? Ahh well.

Moving on to smth less mind-boggling, I feel totally useless today. Use-less. Useless. I have no work, nor do i have any plans. I actually hate having no plans; having no plans means i stay home, and when i stay home all alone, i tend to think too much. On days that i am occupied however, i curse and swear when i need to get out of bed and start my day.

Wouldn't it be amazing if humans never needed sleep? I imagine all the time we'd have, and all the things, although not to the utmost potential, we'd achieve. And i wouldn't, for once, be a lazy person. I've been thinking, that the reason why i can never do all the things i want to do, relies solely on my bed and i think i need to see someone about this, it's mad.

I remember Mom once told me that being lazy, kills a person. I second that. And yet, here i am, in bed, thinking of how i am going to spend my day when it's already six fucking twenty four p.m.

On my way home right now, its one of the times where I am grateful for a blogger app so I can blog on the go. Went to ikah's 21st birthday at Costa sands today. That's pretty much all I did today besides going to Northpoint to get her a cake and present. This was a lazy Sunday at its best. I have Alot of lazy days actually. I wonder how my life will turn out to be having to wake up early in the morning for work in the future. Hope I can commit.

I feel like this rant was very useless today.


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Not a usual fan of these kind of posts, but this one got to me.

I haven't been blogging much lately, perhaps this has phased out, anyway, in attempts to keep this blog alive, i shall talk about what's been going on in my life lately.

I've had the last of my exams about a week ago and am left with a Graduation project to do by October. If everything goes as planned and i don't flunk anything, i graduate with a diploma. Although i would have appreciated a Diploma by a local polytechnic(due to the fact that singapore employers can be very anal with where a person gets their dips from), i am very much satisfied with the Diploma that i am getting.

What's next for me? I have not had it written in stone, but i do hope that i get to further my studies and major in Psychology in either JCU, SIM or MDIS. I don't think i can go abroad as, as much as i hate to say it, i like it here and as many people may know me for, i don't like changes, which is a very bad flaw i know i know. If not, i may try out for Singapore Airlines as part of a cabin crew and although i have been getting support to do it, i have yet to figure out if it's the career that i want, i mean i want something i can do in the long run. But sometimes, it's good to let go of the visions we have and just do something, for the experience.

On top of that, I'm still working working at Berrylite as a server/yoghurt girl/ service staff i don't know what my position is really. I've been really trying to work my ass off so that i can afford myself a vespa. Seeing now that there are a few new staffs, i am considering getting another job and will be starting work very soon at Ztamp. Will see how juggling two jobs will turn out to be like.

These are pretty much the highlights of my life. Yes i know it's very boring and monotone but erm, yeah, that's the reality for now.



Until then, <3

"Let a woman be a woman, an a man be a man"

I don't understand why we have to wait 3/4 hours to see a doctor at polyclinics.
Not to sound very spoon-fed, but this is Singapore.
Things like these shouldn't be a issue.
Granted the reason why i went to see a doctor, was mainly for an mc, but i could not imagine if I were an elderly who happened to be reallllly sick. Would i need to wait that long too?

I flap my hands and lift my feet gently,

and when it's done, i feel a tiny sense of joy.

I can float

And I never get sick of it.

Had my first day on th job today.

Overall, it's really fun and chill, just scooping yoghurt toppings all day and attending to customers.

On another note, do you ever have one of those days where you just want to curl up and die?

Well, not literally die but just, disapear, for a moment or two?

I do. Not as much as i did for th past two years of my life but, sometimes, that feeling still comes around.

I don't know. think im just nuts.

Get out of my hair

What a long day i had today! :
Applied for job @ berrylite
Photoshoot w Charlene and Sam @ Sg Flyer

Night prac @ SSDC

I'm so shagged, i don't know how i can still find th strength to blog.
Anyway, was looking for a rare disease for my class presentation and these caught my eye:

Werewolf Syndrome

Trichotillomania

The urge to pull one's hair out from th scalp, nose, eyelashes etc.

I have not decided what disease i'll be presenting on, maybe on the flesh-eating bacteria disease which picture i will not post (too graphic).

How my Saturday was spent:

Onedrous w Aldrin @ Zouk w the girls.

How my Sunday was spent:
Bought nail polish @ th face shop and experimented with my nails. Need to get myself a nail dotting tool. Bought jam and bread so i could make peanut butter and jam sandwich for sch.
Finished season 4 of How i met your mother ^^




Promise to self that i'll go see bella and sis soon!




Competing for top score on Pig shot.

How today was spent:

Went to school, had an interesting lesson as always, i love Mr Amir's class.

Didn't finish my peanut butter and jam sandwich because i realised:

(1) I dont really like it anymore

(2) There was free buffet food outside class

went to a Yoghurt outlet at Northpoint to apply for a job, th boss wasnt there so i'll be trying again tmr. Hopefully i get it, it's literally a stone's throw away from home.

Am over at liyana's new place over at Bangkit now, am gg to study a little and just slack probably, i have a long day tmr, am so excited!

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